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The_Hammer · 01-22-2009, 09:46 AM

Annie mentioned in her thread, the drama that she seems to get drawn into and the discomfort that she feels from it, like somehow her program is a reflection of the amount of drama she has in her life. I had to smile at having read this; at about five years into this journey (the first time), when drama would creep into my life, I would run to meetings and talk about how; "I should have more serenity than this!"

As mentioned by a couple of us in Annie's thread, it dawned on me slowly that the world does not now, nor has it ever revolved around me and it never will. Drama will come and go as it always has and will continue to do so for the duration of man's tenure on this Big Blue Marble, with or without me. It is I, who must adopt, adapt and improve. It's the way I act and react to the drama around me that is the real gauge of my serenity, the real indicator of my program. This set of ideas digs deeply into my entire life and the whole of the program I am working or not working; such as the case may be. If I am self-absorbed, I will ignore the plight of others and go on about my business as someone flails and screams for help. If I am dishonest with myself and others, I will never have anything to offer those around me that has any worth, it's tainted with BS. If I am unwilling in my contact with others, I never learn anything, and stay trapped within myself, maybe even to use again and die, an unpleasant but true equal and opposite reaction of my own behavior.

When I am Honest, Open and Willing in my program and my dealings with others and their drama, I naturally transfer the responsibility of said drama to those on the stage-no myself. I am in a; "intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us...", mode that I seem to have very little control over and moreover, I do not want that control, God now pilots the ship and I am a happy passenger on the vessel. The promises of pg. 84 and back do not seem so out of reach, but very possible if not probable. I become a beacon in my otherwise dark and stormy soul, reaching out to others instead of foundering on the rocks. It's a pretty damned comfortable existence in my skin these days. My gosh a'mighty it took a long time and it sure isn't over yet. Difference? I am excited to know and see what drama lays over the horizon, what adventures Mertyl and I discover just over the hill.

Thank God for A.A.

01-22-2009, 09:46 AM	#1 (permalink)
The_Hammer Guest Join Date: May 2006 Location: Fremont, NE Posts: 810	Drama, continuation of FullDresser's thread Annie mentioned in her thread, the drama that she seems to get drawn into and the discomfort that she feels from it, like somehow her program is a reflection of the amount of drama she has in her life. I had to smile at having read this; at about five years into this journey (the first time), when drama would creep into my life, I would run to meetings and talk about how; "I should have more serenity than this!" As mentioned by a couple of us in Annie's thread, it dawned on me slowly that the world does not now, nor has it ever revolved around me and it never will. Drama will come and go as it always has and will continue to do so for the duration of man's tenure on this Big Blue Marble, with or without me. It is I, who must adopt, adapt and improve. It's the way I act and react to the drama around me that is the real gauge of my serenity, the real indicator of my program. This set of ideas digs deeply into my entire life and the whole of the program I am working or not working; such as the case may be. If I am self-absorbed, I will ignore the plight of others and go on about my business as someone flails and screams for help. If I am dishonest with myself and others, I will never have anything to offer those around me that has any worth, it's tainted with BS. If I am unwilling in my contact with others, I never learn anything, and stay trapped within myself, maybe even to use again and die, an unpleasant but true equal and opposite reaction of my own behavior. When I am Honest, Open and Willing in my program and my dealings with others and their drama, I naturally transfer the responsibility of said drama to those on the stage-no myself. I am in a; "intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us...", mode that I seem to have very little control over and moreover, I do not want that control, God now pilots the ship and I am a happy passenger on the vessel. The promises of pg. 84 and back do not seem so out of reach, but very possible if not probable. I become a beacon in my otherwise dark and stormy soul, reaching out to others instead of foundering on the rocks. It's a pretty damned comfortable existence in my skin these days. My gosh a'mighty it took a long time and it sure isn't over yet. Difference? I am excited to know and see what drama lays over the horizon, what adventures Mertyl and I discover just over the hill. Thank God for A.A.