[runningfree]

Brent,
I know there is hope, but it is so sporadic that I feel that hope. I go from really feeling like the world (people around me) are better off without my problems effecting them to thinking that perhaps things might work out. My note on your summer is here post reflects my initial thoughts for today. It was a better day, but tomorrow may turn into a tough day. I have a tough time with the positives because as soon as I begin to go down that road -- the rug comes out from under me.
I do have a doctors appt in Boston on Wednesday and hopefully it will be positive. It is not covered by insurance so it is a flat $500 for one hour and I hope that this doctor isn't at all like the other one. He was also not covered by insurance, but he wasn't as high. I am keeping my fingers crossed because I am not going to a third doctor. This is it!
Have a good day.
--Sharon