 Up and then down, repeat.
It's four thirty am and I'm wide awake. My sleep schedule is still out of whack and I'm starting to become very concerned, this is the longest it's been this way (3 weeks now).
Earlier today I was in a really good mood and felt really 'excited' when I went to bed. Then my mind drifted off to some recent bad times and now I feel like sh*t and I'm awake. I have a full day tomorrow (I mean today), including meeting with my new counselor (2nd session) and I'm worried I'll be so out of it from the lack of sleep that I won't be able to have a good session with her.
I refuse to take any sleep medications.
I am very afraid of medications after a horrible experience with Paxil, 8 years ago.
I think I may definitely have a sleep disorder at this point. I am going to try to cut back on coffee, smoking and computer-usage and get more exercise from now on. It's so hard, when those first three are my only vices!
Thanks, just needed to share!
LD
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