I'm not that far behind you so I think I know a little bit of what you mean.
Could be anniversary blues, it seems to be pretty common...sometimes I get that when I look over the year...not even sobriety dates either - real bdays and New Years too...
I know us alkies tend to get PAWS hot spots around 3 months 6 months, one year, two years as well...I'm sure the healing process must be similar in many ways.
Knowing you a little, I think you might be bored tho.
You have a good mind and many talents - maybe you need more to do?.
As for missing excitement, I used to think that too. A lot of people think that way, and I think a lot of people are seduced by that in the end.
I think its a crock tho. LOL
Look back at your life and how small it was - no wonder scoring and using were so exciting - it was all you based your life on. Me too.
We have a chance now to build new lives and new pleasures, new joys - and lasting ones, not short term BS.
And that's the most exciting thing of all - we're only limited by our imagination
See you on the 17th Tan
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