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Well I havn't done much counselor wise. However, last semester I had only what I can describe as a physical and mental breakdown, and ever since then I havn't been able to put myself on track with school. It's about the only thing that matters to me, which is why i'm trying to figure out how to fix that.
I went to the school counselor, and she was completely unhelpful. It seemed sort of as if we were talking to completely different languages, and she said that I might have Bipolar disorder, I cant be sure. I've been to the county mental health center due to its low cost, and again the psychiatrist gave me bipolar medicine. I've googled Bipolar disorder, and I hardly have any of those symptoms. Most of what you read above is a sort of quick insight into whats going on, and based on what bipolar is i'm not sure if the shoe fits.
I'd like to live a normal life, and i'd like to be able to love my gf, but everytime it comes down to it I just don't. I've been trying to make a conscious effort however to be nice and sweet/sly with her, but it's an act and I always feel myself on the verge of extreme irritation when I talk to her and am around her. I'm not quite sure if it's possible that I can love her, or anybody including family.
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