Yay, genrs!!!!!
I know how hard this is and I just wanted you to know how impressed I am with your recovery efforts, your courage, and your thinking. It took me a LONG time to delete my X's emails, and I wasn't even in love with him any more. And I'm not one of the people who can be friends with my Xs, for the most part, either......so don't beat yourself up about that. I mean....I left because they did things to hurt me. Why would I want more of that?
Take care of yourself! How's your new place?