[aasharon90]

Sharing your ESH or EXPERIENCES, STRENGTHS
AND HOPES with me and others is great. This is
one way of helping each other in recovery.

I often wondered myself in early recovery
how so many before me aquired that happiness
each day just by going to meetings because i
felt so low back then.

Sure i had and still have my own faith in a
Power greater than I in tact. That Quiet
Strength inside to carry me thru those highs
and lows in recovery.

But still how does one in early recovery believe
this Strength can actually keep them sober
one day at a time as our program states.

I use to go to meeting after meeting toting
my tray of goodies as a means of service
work. Each time i went, i listened intently
and absorbed what was so freely shared
by many hardly ever speaking a word and
yet i felt hope that i could stay sober
one more day.

The more i repeated that routine on a daily
bases the more one days at a time were
collected to get me to where i am today.

Listening, absorbing and sharing to others
what i heard and giving it away to others
that would listen was a big help in my recovery.

However, within the past yr., i experience new
growth within myself. To know a new freedom
like i had never known was blessed upon me.

Why did it take so long one may ask.....
well.....to let go of old behavior, baggage,
isnt always easy. Just like it is to stay sober
one must give up the drink well so does
wreakage from the past to be happy. FREE.

To be HONEST in all my affairs not only with
me and others but to the Man upstairs. The
One knows all about me and yet it wasnt
until i got sick and tired of hiding that crap
inside me and finally let it go then and only
then did i experience a FREEDOM i had never
known before.

Today I continue on my journey quietly serving
others with my story and feeling Strength
from Above guiding me along as i enjoy the
gift of happiness.

Thanks for letting me share.