Sometimes, a counselor an client just don't "click." When that happens, it's best to end it and move on. I once waited far too long with a counselor that was a real control freak. I worked really hard, in my codie fashion, to try and make it work. It didn't. Oh, and the drama at the end. LOL! It just isn't worth it.
I'm glad you're going to give it a shot. We can jump to conclusions too fast too, before knowing. But, if after a few sessions, things aren't working out, you'll know.
I've learned my lesson. And now, I'm loosing my counselor of years, as she's moving on. I've got to decide whether to move on to another or quit. It's the "dark season" when I have my difficult time, so, I think i know what I'm going to do -- try another. But, I'm not looking forward to the change...
Is it the winter blahs that you have? Cuz, I go through that too. When I just have no energy at all. I really have to force myself. I *know* I have to exercise, and that helps me have more energy. Unfortunately, I've been a slug lately; not doing what I know I'm supposed to be doing; what I know works. I'm paying the price now. But, it *may* be Seasonal Affective Disorder, (SAD), that you're experiencing. I go through it every winter. And this is gearing up to be a bear of a winter!
As far as those feelings of guilt, well, you know, we cannot control any feelings or thoughts that come into our heads. But, we don't have to feed them either. If there is not substance to those feelings, just feel it and let it go. Actively try to replace it with something else. By *doing* something else, we change our thoughts and feelings. If we sit and brood on it, it will only make us feel worse. But, by changing our *behavior,* what we are actually doing, it is by necessity that our thoughts and feelings change too. This practice is based on Wm. Glasser's Control Theory, Reality Therapy. I've found it to be very successful for myself many times.
Try it and see if it helps.
Let me know, ok?
Shalom!