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Jules62 · 01-08-2009, 10:22 PM

Hi Gerry-thanks for your empathy.

I have started to turn it around though.I stopped drinking.If anything-the biggest issue here wasn't the fact I'd drunk.I haven't posted here what my mother said to me and I never will.It wasn't just some trivial piece of information about my past that she wanted to get at me with.I'm more than immune to that from her.

It was huge and life changing in a potentially life-threatening way.I'm not talking 'lowering my self esteem' I'm talking making me feel like I wanted to kill myself.She didn't waste words or soften anything.It was vicious.But that's not even the point.I still have a choice in how I respond.And that's what I'm trying to do.

I'm not where I was a few days ago, now.I'm climbing out of it.With lots of help-much of it from people here.

As Sherry so wisely said-drinking is just a symptom.The real issue is the stuff I'm faced with now.And I'm not drinking-much as my mind has told me I'd like to at times recently.

I won't give in.Thank you for caring though.

Jules.

01-08-2009, 10:22 PM	#103 (permalink)
Jules62 member Join Date: Apr 2007 Posts: 2,279	Hi Gerry-thanks for your empathy. I have started to turn it around though.I stopped drinking.If anything-the biggest issue here wasn't the fact I'd drunk.I haven't posted here what my mother said to me and I never will.It wasn't just some trivial piece of information about my past that she wanted to get at me with.I'm more than immune to that from her. It was huge and life changing in a potentially life-threatening way.I'm not talking 'lowering my self esteem' I'm talking making me feel like I wanted to kill myself.She didn't waste words or soften anything.It was vicious.But that's not even the point.I still have a choice in how I respond.And that's what I'm trying to do. I'm not where I was a few days ago, now.I'm climbing out of it.With lots of help-much of it from people here. As Sherry so wisely said-drinking is just a symptom.The real issue is the stuff I'm faced with now.And I'm not drinking-much as my mind has told me I'd like to at times recently. I won't give in.Thank you for caring though. Jules.