[spirit]

hi running,

maybe you could think about what bits yo dont like about yourself and see if they can be changed or how to cope with them. there must be somethings you like, or even if you dont say you like them, there must be good qualities you have and things you are able to do. i've never met a person who had NO goodness or value in them whatsoever.

i to suffer depression, and one of the ways i try and cope is to say "ok this bit makes me feel like crap - so i wont do it today, or i will do something else that i feel good about" even it is only getting out of bed and making coffee, somedays that is a HUGE achievement. somedays i give myself persmission not to get out of bed and make coffee, i have a mental health day haha

you have had a tough week, and the unnecessary deaths of young people do make us questions the rights and wrongs of life, not just our own, but the universe etc.

it is good to be talking about your feelings, see that is obviously a good skill you have, the ability to share, talk and understand your feelings!

hugs to you
kath