Welcome to the Boards, ash.
Wow, this is a bit of a pickle you've gotten yourself into, eh? I just have to ask, with all due respect ... are you sure this is the 'right time' for you to be pregnant? I mean, how far along are you at this point? I know you know what I'm getting at, and I just think ... it's something worth thinking about, in my book. You sure are taking on a whole lot at once, you know?
And don't forget, if you're on subutex, the baby is on subutex, too. Along w/getting off the benzo's, you're gonna wanna be getting off that stuff pretty quick, too, I'd think, for the baby's sake. Are you sure you can do it? Cause if you're not feeling like REALLY sure you can ...
The reason I bring all this up is that I really think that getting clean has to be something that a person does for themselves alone. I just hope you're not hoping that by being preggo's it's gonna give the 'necessary motivation' to get off drugs and get yourself clean, cause that's really not 'fair' to the child, ya know? What if it turns out you're wrong, and you aren't able to? Getting off subutex after a good run on heroin or oxys or the like? It's damn sure nothing like a picnic, girlfriend. It's rough, I tell you that from first hand experience. It's far from an 'automatic' that you'll be able to do it successfully.
Look, bottom-line, if you mess this up, and don't get clean, and your baby is born with an addiction ... girl, you really might end up regretting this course of action for the rest of your life. That's what I'm getting at here. I hope you've really thought about what you're doing here, cause it's not just your life you're messing with now.
In any case, again, welcome, I don't mean to sound like a downer, and please know, we're all here to help, so ... keep posting
