[ashlasl]

hi i just registered, i am five days of xanax by orders of my obgyn, does this get better, i am not severely addicted, but have been on them for two and a half months, small dose one or two a day, but before that was drinking alcohal everyday for a yr,, and i am also on subutex now,

everything smells bad, looks to bright, sounds to loud, looks so big, i got a terrible headcold that is going into my chest, the xanax helped with the morning sickness so now i am sick alot, only one night of really bad sleeping though, it is good sleep though i wake up alot and dont feel good when i do wake up

the mornings are worst i think cuz that is when i took the pills, i am trying to be positive, i am trying to be hopeful but all i do is worry about everything i didnt care about for all that time i was so drunk or pilled up,

it isnt like heroin dtox for me though, it is weird, like i dont crave a pill like i would crave the needle, i just crave the sanity or relaxed state i would feel when on them

there is a lady up the road who sells valium, and god it is weird i dont really want them, but sometimes my head tells me i do, but i have to push for what is right for the baby,


i dont know i am sure i am not making sense but i just wanted to tell someone what is going on with me ashla