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Yeah I know been mucking around in and out of addiction for some time, thing is - I can do it.
A good friend has been helping me realize that my tactics and excuses are just differant angles for using.

Bad new today~ I have to use
Im terrified of the future- I have to use
I'll just use for a few more daze till I get my head together
Nobody knows the depths of my problems- therefore I'm justified in using
Can't go to a meeting because there's too much snow ,but somehow there's never enough snow to stop me from getting pills.
and on and on and on.

Its all just a slew of nonsence to keep form getting and staying clean.

I accept this and have some hard thinking to do.
Do I want to continue on, turning my liver into soup and messing myself up?
Or do I want recovery?