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Originally Posted by bballdad  So,tell me,whats your thoughts of the desire to stay sober today?Is it a small thing or a large thing to you today? |
To me, drinking ceased to be an option the first day I walked into AA. There are days when the compulsion still strikes me, but sobriety has become a matter of life or death, to drink is to die.
Some days I don't feel like going to meetings, but I always hear a message when I attend. There are days when I have the eff-its about service work, I feel resentful about having to give of my precious time, and then I'm reminded yet again that the gift of emptying trash cans and picking up cigarette butts is humility.
I was told in early sobriety to pray that the people I resented would have a life beyond their wildest dreams and expectations, that they'd be happy, joyous, and free. In return, I received that life and so much more.
The gift isn't just large, it's huge. I'm grateful for all things big and small in sobriety. I just hope I never forget what brought me to where I'm at today.