I have seen the topic of choice turn into ridiculous argument.I can't determine what the experience of others is, or if it is valid or not. Its not my business. I would lke to think that the ideal state for me to be in is as such:
So long as I am free to do wrong, I am not free.
I think alot of disagreement in AA is more about semantics than anything else.
Quote:
If you are as seriously alcoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution. We were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help. This we did because we honestly wanted to, and were willing to make the effort.
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That last sentence changes that "no middle of the road" quote I often hear in meetings. Me being willing to make the effort implies that I make choices. At first I chose not to drink. It was the most self-willed I had ever been. I moved from Steve Dependence to God dependence somewhere along the line through the steps. I do believe that if I stop practicing this way of life I will have no choice but to drink.