gosh pheonix, it's a shame you aren't much into AA or NA cuz both are UBIQUITOUS here in the greater Seattle area...you can find a meeting almost any time of the day in multiple locations, AA halls, retreats, conferences and the like. tell ya what, worst case scenario maybe have a meeting list handy...if you get in a bad way you can go wrap yourself around a lousy cup of coffee and at least be in the atmosphere of other recovering addicts/alcoholics........
truly i'm not trying to recruit you, i just want you to have all the tools possible to build your recovery!!! that powerlessness thing is often a stumbling point for some...remember it doesn't say I am weak and pathetic and spineless....it just says when it comes to drugs i really suck at it!
if it was simply a matter of will power, it would never have gotten out of hand in the first place, and ya wouldn't have needed to go seek outside help, ie medical detox, to get a clean start.
anyway, remember what ya went INTO detox for....to make that clean start. using now makes all the crap you went thru pretty pointless, AND expensive!! just do whatever it take today to NOT use......