[yeahgr8]

You have a tough road ahead of you IMO but one you can definitely get through and have a much better life.

You are absolutely right about AA to some extent and I can see why you feel like that. I've only been sober for almost 11 weeks now and am gloing to counselling twice a week, if i did not have her to talk to i would be in real trouble...you have to have some support. This site is amazing and you can spend hours on here, as i do talking and reading to people who understand what you are going through.

just back to AA for a sec, I am going to start going to meet people and also to get support and to be reminded, like you said in your first post,as to why i am doing this and to be kept reminded in the future. I am going to get out of the house, to go and sit somewhere with people in a similar situation to me. I will listen and take on baord what the individuals say and will get something from it even if it is, as i have said above, to remember why i am doing this! There will be people there with years of sobriety and there will be people coming in with no sobriety. I don't want to go though but it can only be a good thing for me? I don't underdtand the argument that it can't? Am i missing something? This is IMO.

I think AA is a useful tool for us and noone is going to insist you learn anything or even buy a copy of the Big Book, i have been to a few over the years and they seemed ok to me.

Just wanted to give you a different view, not change your mind:-)