I wish you the best. Do whatever you must not to drink, could be anything(meetings,SR, church, professional help), just know you most likely can't do this alone. Remember, getting sober is easy, staying that way can be really hard.
Hang in there there are a lot of people pulling for you!!!
No one wants to see you, or anyone else, fail!!!
What has happened up until now is the past, it's what we do from here on out that will make the difference.......................