I drank again after 6 months sober, for a while I could drink without too many consequences. It wasn't normal drinking but I could stop at a day or two of heavy bingeing and not even want to drink for a month...it wasn;t so bad really. Eventually it has got out of control again and I am having a really hard time stopping.
Part of the reason I started again was that even at 6 months I still didn't feel as happy as I thought I should, I just felt flat and the honeymoon period and excitement of being sober had gone.
I wish I had remembered how much I wanted and needed to stop before those six months...you must have wanted and needed to as well?