I fell off the wagon many times.In fact every time I crawled on it I fell off.My drinking always got worst.Finally one day when I was 33,I raised my white flag of surrender.I had tried to put human efforts into a illness that was beyond human help and I failed at that too.There was only one place left for me to turn,and that was AA.I see you do not like AA.Have you been to a meeting or are you forming a idea based on others experience and what they may say?It helped me,it even saved my life.
The things you have tried seem to not be working.Remember,when all else fails,try AA.
I wish you the best on your search-keep coming back
Tommy