[Vintersemestre]

For the last time, I'm NOT ABUSING IT. The LEGALLY PRESCRIBED bottle says "2 X 40MG DAILY FOR PSYCHOSIS, DEPRESSION AND PAIN". And THAT'S THE AMOUNT THAT I INGEST. How is that abuse??

Why is that so hard for you to understand?? Also, please explain to me how Jules62 post is not sanctimonious and judgmental. He doesn't know ANYTHING about me, who I am, what my situation is, NOTHING. Yet he assumes he knows just how it is, how I'm exactly like every other addict and no one's experience could possibly be any different from his own. Is he a medical professional who has seen my SPECT scan?? Can he live inside my head and feel how I feel? Every single word of his post was abusive, self-righteous and downright mean. I could be wrong, but clearly a product of NA brainwashing.

I just want to say one more thing to you, Jules, as far as me not being "free" because I'm hooked on pills. Are diabetics who take insulin free? What about heart patients who need nitro patches, are they free? What happens to them if they don't take their medicine? THEY DIE, which is exactly where I was headed (by my own hand, no less) if I didn't get the treatment I needed. My blood-endorphin levels are virtually non-existant and without this medication I would be perpetually miserable for the rest of my life. If that means I'm a bad person in your eyes I don't really give a crap. Stay up on your high horse and look down on me if you want, I just hope you realize how much of a jerk it makes you look like.