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I am currently not taking any meds.
No excuses here. I was just diagnosed bp. Found out from my mother that apparently it runs in our family. I have had a life of very irratic (sp) behavior. And times where I was ok. I have done some really horrible things. It has gotten worse in the past couple of years where I can't seem to relax anymore or calm myself like I use to. I have 3 kids so peace and quiet is not an option till after they go to bed at night.
The only times and I know this may sound bad but, the only times I have felt at peace and rarely drank or took drugs. Were the times I just up, walked out the door, got on a bus and stayed with a friend for a month, have done this 3 times in the past year and the last one I stayed gone for 2 months. I came back and even though I was told everything would be better like I was every other time. It isn't and this time is worse. I am just holding on for the 30th.
I am leaving alot out some you can find in the AA forums.
I just realized I messed up that last post and made my responses look like yours. Sorry about that.
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