Oh Mike, thank you so much for your kind words because I surely needed them tonight. Youngest AD is still at her after-work Christmas party (at Pizza Hut) and I just feel so blue.
I guess I shouldn't have walked in there with expectations of any sort.
I will definitely be talking to my AA sponsor because he works for a huge trucking company based in Wichita (where I went to see the specialist at), and I KNOW those co-workers had the surgeries in Wichita, so it
is available in my area.
I was just really discouraged to have a young surgeon, and one who is known for newer 'minimally invasive' back surgeries to only present me with the option of vertebral fusion. He even sat there and said it's a 50/50 crap shoot on the success rate. No thanks.
I've been in counseling for a year now because the depression has been more than I can handle through my recovery program alone. I haven't been able to get in to see my psychiatrist to bump up my dosage of Cymbalta because he was out due to serious health issues, but I finally have an appointment on the 6th with him.
I just feel bloody worn out right now. Chronic pain sucks!
Okay, I'm done whining! Now where's my cheese?
