[Tazman53]

Dan, it really hurts inside when we first see the true pain we have brought to those we love, yet it also lets us realize just how much they love us to stay with us as long as they do.

Dan who you were yesterday is gone, continue to live the amends to your wife, trust me, your present day to day actions are far better amends to your wife then any apology will ever be.

I too put my wife through a living hell along with my kids, my kids moved beyond my past far quicker then my wife did, but I have continued to live my amends to her on a daily basis and as a result she too has moved beyond my past misdeeds.

Dan no purpose is served by beating ones self up for the past, learn from it, make amends for it, and move forward, the past will kill us if we let it. Give your wife time, remember, she did not get those feelings over night, it took time. It will take time for her to move forward as well, but if you do your part then you and her stand a chance of moving forward together.

One day at a time, one step at a time, we go forward.