[tkdan]

Last night my wife and I did some serious talking about my alcoholic behaviour of the past. It was a little upsetting to me as we talked but not too bad. This morning I started to journal about our talk and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I had been such a horrible husband and father. I do not know how she stayed by my side. I do not know why she is still there willing to make it work after all I put her through. She is trully a blessing. I will have to lean heavy on my step work to get all of this guilt and shame taken off my shoulders. Thanks for listening.