Hi Angelina.
I am an AA'er..but as my sponsor told me today on a phone chat.."You have a
marvelous story of recovery of a lifelong drug addiction." And I have.
I have "fired" a sponsor before. A long time ago. She told me I would be her
only sponsee that would fail, and that I was not clean and sober because I
was taking Prozac prescribed by my psychiatrist. I did relapse. It wasn't
her fault..but that type of "support" sure didn't help.
My current sponsor is a Godsend. I called her..and she said "Whatever I can do
to be of help to you." That's it. We started meeting weekly..she trusted me
to work my steps on my own and in Step Studies. Then we reviewed my progress.
She never pressures me...I can sense unconditional love from her. It is almost
palpable. It makes me want to try harder..be better for the next time.
I have friends who "work the Steps" over again...my sponsor feels you
do it once. And progress from there...because if you are attending meetings,
Step Studies (at those meetings)..reading your books, sharing, doing something
in the area of service, (right now..I am not)..sponsoring another..then
the Program, you see, is "working you." As it does. It begins to take on
a life of it's own..but it has to be nurtured in love.
It doesn't seem your sponsor was acting in that love, Ang.
Not on this end anyway. As Moontime said..she needs to know how you feel.
And if it can't be fixed..search for something better.
You will be led to the right one.
