Hi my name is Jennifer and im roughly five weeks sober, ive been through early recovery before and thought I had all the bases covered but Ive come up against something new this time.
I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression many times but I always assumed that it was just part and parcel of my drinking, I used depression on my sick notes instead of alcohol dependency (less of a stigma, lol).
The horrific anxiety has lessened significantly since I stopped drinking, but in the last couple of weeks I have become crippled with what I can only call depression.
I dont feel miserable I just dont feel anything, I have gone from being a chronic insomniac to sleeping (or just zoning out) for approxiametly 18 hours a day.
I hate leaving the house, Im not frightened I just dont want to, and even when I do I cant bring myself to talk or interact with anyone, Im fairly ok when Im on my own but life isnt like that, is it.
Im taking anti depressents, which I have been for a while, along with vitamins and Im trying to eat healthily etc.
I am seeing a counsellor and although it started off well enough, Im starting to feel its a bit pointless, or even counter productive, Im not sure how experienced she is and although she is lovely I find myself becoming frustrated with her.
I would appreciate any advice any one has to offer, should I just wait this out or is there other avenues I should be exploring.
