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**DesertEyes** · 12-13-2008, 04:39 PM

Hey there Liz

Yeah I know about those "moments'. I call them "oh ****** " moments.

My problems are with short term memory, not vision. I sometimes forget something I just did a couple minutes ago. Like I'll be paying bills and a couple months later when balancing my checkbook I notice I paid the same bill twice. On the same day. In fact, I put _two_ identical checks in the one envelope. eeeesh

My g/f will be making plans for the weekend with me and she'll stop short, caress my cheek and say "Mike, I just answered that question 10 seconds ago".

The way I see it, I was going to lose my memory sooner or later. Eventually I'd get to be 100 yrs old and get Alzheimers, although not necesarily in that order. Our politicians here in this side of the world always claim they can't remember when they get called in to be questioned on their mis-deeds, so I just tell people I'm practicing to become President of the USA

I focus on what I still have that works. That's my friends, my recovery, and my HP. All the rest is going to fade away, given enough time, so obviously it's not what's important in life. One of my sponsor used to say that the any thing you can hold in your hands is not worth holding on to. It's only the things I can hold in my heart that are worth holding on to.

That's the way I feel about my health and my body. They're just _things_. When the deal is done what I am going to value about life is not my body or my health. It's the people I have loved and that loved me back that have made my life worth living.

Mike

12-13-2008, 04:39 PM	#2 (permalink)
DesertEyes Starting over Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Skin city Posts: 2,485	Hey there Liz Yeah I know about those "moments'. I call them "oh ****** " moments. My problems are with short term memory, not vision. I sometimes forget something I just did a couple minutes ago. Like I'll be paying bills and a couple months later when balancing my checkbook I notice I paid the same bill twice. On the same day. In fact, I put _two_ identical checks in the one envelope. eeeesh My g/f will be making plans for the weekend with me and she'll stop short, caress my cheek and say "Mike, I just answered that question 10 seconds ago". The way I see it, I was going to lose my memory sooner or later. Eventually I'd get to be 100 yrs old and get Alzheimers, although not necesarily in that order. Our politicians here in this side of the world always claim they can't remember when they get called in to be questioned on their mis-deeds, so I just tell people I'm practicing to become President of the USA I focus on what I still have that works. That's my friends, my recovery, and my HP. All the rest is going to fade away, given enough time, so obviously it's not what's important in life. One of my sponsor used to say that the any thing you can hold in your hands is not worth holding on to. It's only the things I can hold in my heart that are worth holding on to. That's the way I feel about my health and my body. They're just _things_. When the deal is done what I am going to value about life is not my body or my health. It's the people I have loved and that loved me back that have made my life worth living. Mike __________________ Sunsets are not endings. If I have enough faith, they are beginnings.