I too had a million day 1's until I finally realized that I needed that "divorce" like PB said. I think that is a great way to put it and I too kept trying to "get back together" hoping that it would treat me differently. This thread got me through the first days for sure.
Now that I have been "separated" from alcohol for a little while (day 53), I am able to reflect on how it makes me feel and how it treats me like crap. When I try to drink only a few, I can't stop myself from drinking more. When I drink more than a few, I don't know how I will act towards myself and others. As I have begun to accept these facts about this "partner" alcohol, it makes me not want to be with them. I have more giving relationships to pursue.
Take care all! Follow the good relationships.