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Missy,
You don't hate yourself. You're hear reaching out for help, that proves it! I think you've decided to do something about your drinking and you've come to the right place. There are many here that were exactly where you are. I was there 115 days ago! I didn't think I could quit. After many attempts I finally changed my routine by fooling myself, changing my driving route and using all my weaknesses to pull off a sober and happy lifestyle. For me routine was the key. Change your routine and change yourself. Alcohol is a very easy trap to fall into. If it burnt you or shocked you, you'd run for the hills. It's deceptive "good feelings" suck you in for bitter disappointment.
Keep reading, keep posting. Prayers
__________________ You drink to feel better for a few hours then feel like crap the entire next day. Because you feel like crap the entire next day, you drink to feel better, if only for a few hours.  |