| Alcohol has made me a complete nutcase
Basically I am a nutcase. I have a few problems when sober. But I am a nutcase, complete nutcase when drinking.
All the great things about me have disappeared. It's because of the alcohol.
Even if I fix myself people are still going to think I am a nutcase. I'm a complete embarrassment, I am a complete disgrace. And right now I completely hate myself.
I'm a nutcase because I have hurt someone so close to me who has given me the whole world. I hate myself because of it. I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do.
All because I am a stupid alcoholic. All because I cannot control myself like normal people.
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