[ogre]

Ok, I was at the doctors yesterday.
I had go to see her in October and hand in my stash of pills (T1's, 2's and 3's, had about 500 of them). That appopintment went ok. I had asked for pain patchs and she said no. But she left me on the Toradol.
So, yesterdays appointment was to see how things were going. She had asked me to keep track of how many Toradol I take a day. Which I did. I know that how many I take a day is not bad, only between 2-4. But I do take them everyday. And yes I know that they aren't addictive but I feel dependant on them. I told her that i take them emotional pain too. She said that it is good that I can admit that and know that I am doing that but she doesn't seem to concerned about it. I have been on the Toradol for about 3 years now and that worries me. Everything I have read about it says that you should be on it for more than a week or two!!
I told her how sometimes it is just taking a nice little white pill can make me feel better and she said to try taking a vitamin instead. I know that won't work for me cause I have tried it.
I guess I am concerned that she doesn't really understand how I am feeling. I would like to talk to another doctor but maybe they will say the samething. I just want to be off the pills. I told her that I feel buzzed everyday and she said while that isn't from the Toradol but that is all I take now. I told her that one night I took too many of them and than I feel asleep on the couch and when I woke up an hour later and the room was spinning, she said again that the Toradol wouldn't cause that.
I don't know where I am going with this.....i guess I just feel like she don't understand how I feel.