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dotcom · 04-11-2004, 09:43 PM

Brent,

I am so sorry that things have turned this way. I will keep you in my prayers, you have been so helpful to me! I have been in a similar situation only i knew for a fact that the tape was being passed around and what was on the tape. i dont say this to be nasty, especially since you are male and i am female. i say this so you know where i am coming from.

one thing that really keeps me afloat is knowing that i have today, and i cannot do anything about yesterday. yes, the shame sticks to me and i feel that there is a blinking neon light above my head... and i know i just wrote about shame, but it is such an intense feeling. especially since i am a very sensative person.

sometimes not knowing.. is the worst. the mind starts playing tricks on us and we get into what ifs... since you do not know for sure, maybe take a few deep breaths, stop looking for the disc, and resume looking once you have balanced out and are feeling a little less frantic. dont automatically think the worst! the disc may have fallen in a drawer, or it may be in your back pack. i get frantic and urgent and just have to find something right now or i will lose my mind and just want to scream and pull my hair out. hmm... perhaps im not the best person to offer advice then (that was a joke to make you laugh HAHA).

i do not know what to say, but i will say that i will keep you in my prayers and i would as we all would, be very sad if you decided to check out! you have a lot to offer, Brent. i hope that you will not let this eat your insides to pieces. and i hope you will go to school with your head held high because i am sure you are a very bright man. and do remember... we all have our skeletons in our oversized closets...

and if there is anything i can do to help you back up on the wagon, just let me know. i know a thing or two about falling off.. ok, i know a lot about falling off the wagon. and what i know best is that i can get back on it and keep on keeping on through the good and the bad. please please please (times a million) do not check out! maybe we could do an online contract thing? i dont want to over step my boundaries, but i feel so badly for you and dont want you to feel so horrible! we are here for you. ok?

i hope i have been of some help to you. please let us know how you are doing! no matter how bad you feel or how shamed you feel, WE STILL LOVE YOU! anything i can do just let me know. like i said, you have helped me immensely and i would like to do the same.

Hugs and prayers coming your way,

Jess

04-11-2004, 09:43 PM	#4 (permalink)
dotcom Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: laughing at my avatar Posts: 1,636	Brent, I am so sorry that things have turned this way. I will keep you in my prayers, you have been so helpful to me! I have been in a similar situation only i knew for a fact that the tape was being passed around and what was on the tape. i dont say this to be nasty, especially since you are male and i am female. i say this so you know where i am coming from. one thing that really keeps me afloat is knowing that i have today, and i cannot do anything about yesterday. yes, the shame sticks to me and i feel that there is a blinking neon light above my head... and i know i just wrote about shame, but it is such an intense feeling. especially since i am a very sensative person. sometimes not knowing.. is the worst. the mind starts playing tricks on us and we get into what ifs... since you do not know for sure, maybe take a few deep breaths, stop looking for the disc, and resume looking once you have balanced out and are feeling a little less frantic. dont automatically think the worst! the disc may have fallen in a drawer, or it may be in your back pack. i get frantic and urgent and just have to find something right now or i will lose my mind and just want to scream and pull my hair out. hmm... perhaps im not the best person to offer advice then (that was a joke to make you laugh HAHA). i do not know what to say, but i will say that i will keep you in my prayers and i would as we all would, be very sad if you decided to check out! you have a lot to offer, Brent. i hope that you will not let this eat your insides to pieces. and i hope you will go to school with your head held high because i am sure you are a very bright man. and do remember... we all have our skeletons in our oversized closets... and if there is anything i can do to help you back up on the wagon, just let me know. i know a thing or two about falling off.. ok, i know a lot about falling off the wagon. and what i know best is that i can get back on it and keep on keeping on through the good and the bad. please please please (times a million) do not check out! maybe we could do an online contract thing? i dont want to over step my boundaries, but i feel so badly for you and dont want you to feel so horrible! we are here for you. ok? i hope i have been of some help to you. please let us know how you are doing! no matter how bad you feel or how shamed you feel, WE STILL LOVE YOU! anything i can do just let me know. like i said, you have helped me immensely and i would like to do the same. Hugs and prayers coming your way, Jess __________________ probably not.