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"When you think at that moment that it is possible-then the magic starts."-Siegfried

I can relate to so much that you wrote. Depression can be so cruel..to the sufferer.and the family. I myself have been in some very deep depressions and have tried many times to take my life. It was not until I found a way to believe that yes..even I was worthy of being happy and fulfilled and content..I always felt like I had to shoulder the burden, bear the bad news..and I got I think to where it was just easier to be pessimistic and expect defeat...than to get my hopes up..only to come crashing down around me so painfully hard. It is one of the most difficult things I have ever done..to hang on when the depression is so brutal..and to climb out of it....it is real work. But it can be done. baby steps, trusted friends or counselors to talk with, yoga, exercise, a ood diet, art, beauty of nature, journalling..these thinsg all help me..but they did not work until I could believe that it was actually possible to change my thinking. A great book I highly recommend is Real magi..by Dy Wayne Dyer. It has encouraged and inspired me many atime when I felt I could not pull myself up even an inch. Also finding all the success stories of thos who found a way to live well and be truly happy ins pite of depression helps too. Knowing it can be done will help you so much.
Please hang in there. I know how dark and bleak and frustrating it gets. And I also know better days are available to us. Maybe find ahobby you could enjoy, or a yoga class, walking is excellent....the beauty of nature inspires me. Start slow, no big expectations..just little step by little step..you can do this. keep posting and talking about it, never stop trying...you are as worthy and deserving of a miracle as everyone else. Believe..and then you will see. I always waited to see so I could believe, and it never quite worked. It's ahard thing to break from but so worth it.

{{{Warm, Supportive Hugs}}}