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I've lived with my dream for almost 13yrs. We dated for a year, it was awesome, that's the best word that comes to mind. Literally the day we arrived home from our honeymoon the hate started, but he always apologized. I always believed him.
I think now I stay because at times I can see that person and he's not nearly as bad as he used to be. I can't let myself be the way I used to be with him because he's not all of the person that was sold to me in the dating phase.
We split up for several months one time, it was such a relief to be free. A freedom I'd never known. I paniced though a few months into it, and went back......Only to leave again and come back again and leave again and yes come back again...
I think I should of had a funeral as well, it probably would of helped tremendously.
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