Thank you everyone for all of your advice!! I think that I truly knew what everyone advised me to do. I just needed to hear it. Sometimes I feel like I am inside my head so much thinking this and thinking that.
Thanks2HP...I do not have a sponser or anything like that. I was thinking about going to some meetings at this place i found on the internet. However, i am a little intimidated by the idea. I think about what if I see someone i know. Or something like that. I am going to try and get the courage to go. I just have a lot of anxiety...of course...going to one. That's kind of why I am here at SR. I am finding a lot of good advice here but maybe I should find some more outside of SR. I dunno. I know that talking and expressing helps me release some of that anxiety. Thanks again!!