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ViolentHill32 · 12-02-2008, 07:35 PM

I've never posted a thing on a forum, but I think it's time to reach out.

I am the wife of a recovering alcoholic. We've been together 7 years, and while I knew he had been abusing "something' for 6 years of our relationship, (he has been off the booze for 1 year, 22 days) I have just recently opened my eyes to the realization that he is using again, but this time it's not alcohol. It's prescription drugs and he has just confessed that he's been on them (ordering them) since one month out of rehab (1 year ago) and now he's completely, physically addicted to pain pills.

This time last year we were the model recovering couple. Did everything by the book. But things changed quickly. I notice he began to transform about a month into our recovery, but I chalked it up to one of the many changes I'd seen. Now, 1 year later, I have learned that I've been lied to and deceived again, repeatedly, for the last year!! I knew that something was wrong a while ago, but I seem to have forgotten all that I've learned (I guess we both have), I didn't want to believe the warning signs, I didn't want it to be true. It's so sad. I look at him now, and I DREAD going through the pain of trying to get back on track. I love the idea of my husband. I want a future with him. But I don't know who I live with anymore. I am shocked, confused, grieving, and fed-up.

This is a long story kind of short. I'm not even sure if this is the right forum. But if anyone can point me in the right direction, I could really use it.

Thanks-
Crushed.

12-02-2008, 07:35 PM	#1 (permalink)
ViolentHill32 Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: State of Exhaustion Posts: 9	Here we go again... I've never posted a thing on a forum, but I think it's time to reach out. I am the wife of a recovering alcoholic. We've been together 7 years, and while I knew he had been abusing "something' for 6 years of our relationship, (he has been off the booze for 1 year, 22 days) I have just recently opened my eyes to the realization that he is using again, but this time it's not alcohol. It's prescription drugs and he has just confessed that he's been on them (ordering them) since one month out of rehab (1 year ago) and now he's completely, physically addicted to pain pills. This time last year we were the model recovering couple. Did everything by the book. But things changed quickly. I notice he began to transform about a month into our recovery, but I chalked it up to one of the many changes I'd seen. Now, 1 year later, I have learned that I've been lied to and deceived again, repeatedly, for the last year!! I knew that something was wrong a while ago, but I seem to have forgotten all that I've learned (I guess we both have), I didn't want to believe the warning signs, I didn't want it to be true. It's so sad. I look at him now, and I DREAD going through the pain of trying to get back on track. I love the idea of my husband. I want a future with him. But I don't know who I live with anymore. I am shocked, confused, grieving, and fed-up. This is a long story kind of short. I'm not even sure if this is the right forum. But if anyone can point me in the right direction, I could really use it. Thanks- Crushed.