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My husband also accuses me of having a boyfriend, always checking my phone for call from men that he doesn't know. Anyway, I asked him to leave last week Monday. He's what you call a dry drunk. It was 3 years ago today he got his 4th DUI. Happy Anniversary to when my life changed for the worst. I've stuck by his side for the past 3 years, making it easy for him to get through these troubling times, so he didn't feel like a failure. It took everything away from me, I didn't take care of myself. Now I'm burned out to the point where I don't even want to look at him. He doesn't get it. Just got off the phone with him and he asked if I'm feeling better and do I want him to come home. I told him NO. IF he were to come back right now, things would be chaos the minute he walked thru the door because he isn't willing to change. He still dabbles with alcohol and weed. He doesn't understand how working the AA program will fix or change anything. He doesn't like going to meetings. So, I'm left to make all the changes and unfortunately it doesn't include him in my life. I go see my counselor tomorrow.
It's not easy in fact, it's the hardest decision I have ever had to make. A decision for my own sanity and happiness.
Yesterday's topic was detachment. Oh so fitting for me!
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