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Originally Posted by Bernadette 
What's keeping you in the car?
Fear?
Shame?
Pride?
Denial?
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I am afraid for people to see me as weak, I am afraid that they will see how I have failed. Part of me is afraid that they will help me, part of me is afraid that they won't. I am very embarassed at being in this position. I guess I am also scared to admit that my husband really does have a problem, and I am afraid to let go and let it be HIS problem. I am so used to it making problems for me. I have very little self-confidence at this time, but I have unfounded self-pride. I am afraid to ask for help out loud. I can type, but I can't talk. I am so sick and tired of being scared but it seems to be my most prevalent emotion. I hate crying, but it seems like I cry several times every day now. I'm a mess!