Girl, you don't have to be afraid to cry! I still remember my first meeting, I was so scared. I told myself, everyone here in this room is here because of a loved one who is an alcoholic or addict. We all share something. I was made to feel welcome and I am so ever grateful I went and still keep going back because it's like my medicine for my sanity. I cried my first time, still will shed a tear from time to time. And guess what? I'm not the only one who is saddened by this disease, others cry there too. It's a great tool to have, going to Alanon. If anything, just go and listen. Taking the first step is the hardest but you only have to take baby steps until you are ready to get to where you need to be. It took me 3 years to finally say "ENOUGH" and it's not going to get better overnight. Alanon is there for me to help me through each new step I face.
I wish you all the best and hope you can make it to a meeting.
