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This word was the the topic of one of my more recent meetings. As some of you know, it also has to do with our step work. It seems that this is an insurmountable task at times. Actually admitting you are powerless seems like the end all surrender, doesn't it? But it really doesn't stop there. For me, that is really where my power began.
Before, I always saw things one way...My way. I wanted my X to stop drinking so we could resume what I thought would be this awesome, peaceful life. Of course, when I tried to inflict my way, we all know the ultimate outcome...That made me feel powerless. I felt angry, lonely, abandoned, fearful, resentful, and all the other millions of emotions we talk about here often.
Giving up control has been the most powerful thing I have ever done. By giving up that power and putting it back to where it belonged, I actually gave myself permission to take a break and quit trying to fix the world-my world- in a day. While I am powerless over the effects of alcoholism in my life, there is a power greater than me that is NOT. So I just need to sit back, take care of me and let that power work without any interference from me.
Just wanted to share today.
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