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How does this mental phenomenon continue to handicap you in your daily affairs? Why do insane ideas win out?
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I don't mean to make lite of this at all but for me, the desire to drink, was removed a long time ago. The occasional desire to change something in those closest to me like an opinion, action or lack of action, has not. I still have a lot of "oh yea" moments. You know, where you you walk into a wall, do it 2 or 3 times then realize, oh yea ... there's a wall there. lol.
I guess for me today and where I am, it makes a lot of sense what someone once shared with me ... this isn't an obstacle, it's an opportunity.
One of the greatest lessons I've learned in AA, is that I'm human. I'm going to get upset, somebody will honk me off, the guy riding my tail on the interstate will always drive me nuts, standing in the checkout line of 10 items or less when the person ahead of me has 20 will make my eyes cross and so forth.
What measures the quality of what I have based on the efforts I've put into taking the steps, determines how I respond. I'd love to say I do it right 100% of the time, but I know there are other alcoholics here and they all know the truth.
The simple fact is, it keeps getting better as long as I keep applying the principles.
I can't stay sober alone ... that I do know. I need AA & God. I turn from those two things, I'm cooked.