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Thank you both. I actually did say (and say often) that I believe in him and I know he can do this and that he has to do it for himself, not anyone else. And I DO believe in him. He's stronger than he thinks he is. But I'm still scared.
It's like I know what to do but it really is so hard being in a position of caring so much for someone and not being able to do anything. And he's crashing hard and starting the withdrawals again so naturally any question as to how he's doing, feeling, whatever is met with animosity and anger and him saying I'm asking just to be annoying.
I won't leave our friendship. I want to be his friend because he does have more good qualities than bad and we have a lot of good between us. Is it wrong to be there for someone no matter what? Even if they're killing themselves and I do not approve? Sometimes I want to scream when he's high but I don't. And then sometimes I wonder if there would be a time where, if he doesn't really stop doing drugs, that I would eventually have to leave the friendship.
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