Hello there DeVon
Have a _gentle_ (((( hug )))) cuz I know it hurts.
I think you are doing exactly the right thing. You are consulting with your docs and your sponsor to make sure your judgement is correct, and you are taking action to improve the quality of your life. That is the essence of recovery, in my opinion.
I'll be praying for you extra on Dec 2, which happens to be the same day that I go see my neuro-surgeon to discuss a number of issues in the quality of _my_ life. I'll pray for you and you pray for me and both of us will get thru this just fine.
Mike

p.s. I pray for you _every_ day, ya know? I'll just do it extra on Dec 2