Hi, rudeawakening;
And welcome to the MH forum of SR!
I took a quick look at your previous posts, and noticed that you've also had a recent break up with your g/f and are an ACOA. Those things, compiled with the economic recession the country is experiencing, (which councelors say is causing stress at very high levels in the population), your personal disappointment in the election and business problems and the change in the seasons/clock can add up to problems for the best of us. If you have a tendency for seasonal depression, (seasonal affective disorder -- SAD - brought about by the shortening of hours of sunlight), to begin with, these additional problems could definately put you over the edge.
There are many ways to deal with seasonal affective disorder. But, I do suggest you make an appointment with your doctor first. Only a doc can diagnose you. But, there are light boxes available that are supposed to work wonders. And of course, taking care of yourself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually are always important. Medications and therapy with a counselor are also available if needed. With some of the issues with which you are dealing, it may be a good idea to talk to an objective trained listener.
Of course, we are always here, too, with a sympathetic ear, and our own ESH, (experience, strength and hope), to share. Feel free to read around the forums. Take what you need and leave the rest. Share your thoughts and feelings. We're a friendly group here that cares about each other.
Shalom!