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I am on day 12 and the last two days I have been hit with crushing depression. I now see why I self-medicated with marijuana and worry that I will have to go back to it if this depression thing because a permanent state again.
I think my initial symptoms of being all over the place were due to acute withdrawal symptoms, which have now subsided.
But I am willing to give it some time to find out.
I am picking up a new med, Risperdal to add to my Lamictal. I cannot take regular antidepressants due to bipolar mania when on them, so I hope this works out.
But the depression definitely feels mental rather than situational.
I am hoping this is a brain thing and a readjustment, and if I stick with it, it will get better. I hope my new med helps as well. I need all the help I can get to stay clean and sober.
Maybe the fact that the reward center of the brain is not getting turned on as it used to, is rebelling with depression and it will pass. I hope so.
Good luck to you!
Cat
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