[12 Step Girl]

(((((((((Tammie)))))))))))))

Girl, you Rock! (in the words of dotcom).

You know im a people addict, not chemical, but I totally relate to the fear and depression. You know what they say about our "greatest" fears,,,the usually dont come true. They are just fantasies that screw and brew in our head. Its the dern disease trying one last thing to hinder our recovery.

Ha,,,fine, then, let that turd of a disease try to have a last laugh with us LOL,,,youve got big battallion of armor on your side,,his name his HP! HMMP! Wait til the disease tries to do battle with THAT entity.

Find HP, ask him tosit with you on your shoulder while you go thru the WD...he will, ya know. He comes thru via phone calls from loving friends, messages on this board, the sweet bird that may sit on your window sill just when you feel down.

I asked God to restore me to sanity today while going thru some shoddy resentments, then went on a bike ride,,and dont ya know, when i came home, got a call from a sponsee who is going thru some tought doodie now, and shared some ES and H with her, and feel much better. God answers,,,,we must listen.

So,,,,tonight Im going to the funeral wake for the 8 yr old son of another sponsee. My sponsor told me that when I go, to take God with me! What he was saying is,,,,Your going to be of service to your sponsee, to give her stregth, love and support. So remember,,,take MY god with me, so he will give me the same.

You can do it, babe, keep your feet in just today,,,and u will be ok!

Love you,,keep posting so we can be there for you. We may be the voice of your HP!!