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justjo · 11-13-2008, 03:02 PM

Everytime I think about posting I feel sick but I think its time I reached out. Dont know whats wrong with me. You see, Ive always had to be the strong one, always had to be there for others, the arm, the solid post since I was a kid.
Its hard for me to even say whats happened, because I dont reach out to people. Have no friends and I think because Im the one who was always there for family, they cant even see Im depressed.
I left my job 4 months ago and started my own business but the last few weeks I cant even face another person. Im finding it hard to go out. I keep slapping myself, you know (wake up girl) but this dreaded feeling keeps pulling me down. I dont feel that theres anyone I can talk to, no-one because (I) dont show feelings, I find it even hard to cry. Ive been having bad thoughts and its scaring me. Im not suppose to be like this and Im even embarrassed about the post, Im sorry.
Can anyone help me?

11-13-2008, 03:02 PM	#1 (permalink)
justjo Sunny Side Up Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Sth Australia Posts: 3,787	Need A Friend Everytime I think about posting I feel sick but I think its time I reached out. Dont know whats wrong with me. You see, Ive always had to be the strong one, always had to be there for others, the arm, the solid post since I was a kid. Its hard for me to even say whats happened, because I dont reach out to people. Have no friends and I think because Im the one who was always there for family, they cant even see Im depressed. I left my job 4 months ago and started my own business but the last few weeks I cant even face another person. Im finding it hard to go out. I keep slapping myself, you know (wake up girl) but this dreaded feeling keeps pulling me down. I dont feel that theres anyone I can talk to, no-one because (I) dont show feelings, I find it even hard to cry. Ive been having bad thoughts and its scaring me. Im not suppose to be like this and Im even embarrassed about the post, Im sorry. Can anyone help me?