[padawan]

I experienced somewhat of the same thing a few months ago, due to a long overdue surgery and discovered a painful thing about myself- If I have it, I'll abuse it. One morning I found myself counting out what was left in the bottle and figuring out how many days left I had before a refill. I dumped the bottle in the toilet and took a few advil later that day, then called my doc and had him cancel the prescript. He asked if I was sure, and I told him my fear, and that if it was the pain was THAT bad, I'd be willing to drive all the way down to his office and pick up another prescription for limited amounts. Haven't called him once.

hope it helps, and best of luck. Search yourself and see if you abused em, then be honest with your HP and yourself on where to go next.

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