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pathetic attempt to make it all better huh? lol... well, if crossing my fingers did work that would rock. i dont really like talking on the phone, or talking in general for that matter. so i dont know about a mental health hotline, id probly call, say hi and tell them im fine and dont know why im calling, other than i feel i have a problem but dont want to discuss it.

i checked out post acute withdrawl, and the dotster probly has it. i can relate to being emotionally numb, because i realize there is a problem, but sweep it under the rug and have already justified that im fine. my phys coordination has also been a bit off. i get a twitch in my leg when walking every few hours...like im having a seizure or something. and stress...thats a given. i do also feel in the fight or flight mode again. and have no appetite. well, i do but i usually have more to eat especially by now.

yes chy, ive been very antsy. probly cause i let myself come so close to using then pulled away at the very last second. teasing my body into thinking it would have a taste. maybe thats where the paw comes from? i dont know. but thanks for all your concerns, im concerned as well. i would like to say ill be fine as im sure i will.